Wednesday, November 23, 2011

If you ask yourself why artistes charge So much..

If you ask yourself why artiste(singers,dancers,musicians,producers,etc) charge so much for performances
We don't get paid vacation, we don't get paid sick days, we don't get bonuses for outstanding performances nor for Raya. We don't have insurance plans nor do we qualify for unemployment. We sacrifice our family on special days so that we can bring happiness to others. Illness or personal affairs are not excuses for a bad performance. Next time you ask, remember that artiste are artiste because of the love of music & art, but that love doesn't pay debts.

Happy Artiste Day!!

Friday, November 11, 2011

back in 80s

Dear Beloved

I was BORN in 80's. The last SANE generation! - We are the last generation that learnt to play in the street, we are the first who've played video games, seen cartoons in color and went to amusement parks. - We were the last to record songs of the radio on cassettes and we are the pioneers of walkmans and chatrooms... ...We Learned how to program the VCR before anyone else, play with the Atari, Super Nintendo and believed that the Internet would be a free world. - We are the generation of the Thunder Cats, the Transformers, Scooby Doo, Tom And Jerry, Jungle Book, Popeye, G.I. JOE. Traveled in cars without seat belts or air-bags - lived without cell phones. Rode our bicycles down the road without brakes. We nvr had phone but still kept in touch. We did not have Play stations, 99 television stations, flat screens, surround sound, mp3s, iPods, computers and the Internet, ...but nevertheless we had a great time!
This is for you if you were born in the 80s!Cheers

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

am I lost?

Gmorning dear diary.
Been thinking a lot lately. I don't even know where to start. But here goes.. I've been thinking about what my conversation was about one time before. With vinot..

I was Somehow just telling him about
"how girls takes all the little things a guy does & turn it into Something So complicated in their own little mind & they hurt themselves. because the truth is, some guys just wanna be friends."

.....and I told him I didn't wanna be amongst those kinda girls. and Vinot actually said something that made me realize Something else. he told me,
"you can.. yes you can try not to be amongst those girls, but don't let it become a wall, that at some point.... you don't even see what is in front of your eyes, are for real"

I do understand what he's trying to say.. and I kinda actually thought about it. and at Some point, I do see it now.. that I actually built walls around myself that its so hard for people to even reach me, to know me, to feel me. I become so numb that sometimes, I dont know what love feels like, what caring is all about, what friends are really like. without me realizing, I actually stop living life.. as me. I stop understanding what life is all about. what the hell happened man. I feel So numb. where did "i" go? I always felt like I have a complete life. I do actually. I do. but everything I do I feel empty. God knows what's missing. Have you ever felt so strong that it made you feel weak? long days, long nights and you just can't sleep sometimes?
..or have you ever been so sure that it gave you cold feet? well I get that a lot. a lot alright, till at times I feel so bare I can feel my heartbeat pounding fast.

What else am I looking for? I seriously don't know. I really don't. but walau apapun terjadi, I know that God is with me. all the time. Insyallah I'll be alright. amen~